I wish I wasn't writing this post today, but sometimes you have no choice but to face reality. Yes, the dreaded word, Injury is now part of my vocabulary. I guess I never thought it would happen to me and I could continue running marathons forever without any major problems, but life sure does throw some curve balls at us.
A few weeks ago after my last marathon I was having groin pain, as always I figured it was just soreness or muscle pain, so I continued to run. Two weeks after that, we ran a relay race. I felt ok and ran two of my legs, but on The second leg I knew something was wrong. I could barely move my left leg without being in excruciating pain. I finished my second leg and sat out the rest. Upset and angry at myself but still in denial that it could be anything serious. The next morning, I couldn't move my left leg at all, I still kept thinking maybe it's my IT band or muscle pain. I continued to foam roll, ice, elevate, etc. you name it, I tried it. I waited like two more weeks before heading to the dr for some medical advice. We did an X-ray and it was fine or so we thought. We decided to try physical therapy and see if it would help. Well another week went bye and still in pain. I continued to bike to keep my endurance up and that sport didn't hurt so figured why not. PT was challenging but felt better after I had it. Eventually decided I needed to get the dreaded MRI. The day of the MRI I prayed and prayed nothing would show up, but deep down I knew something wasn't right. As I sat in the room waiting for the loud noises to stop, I just kept hoping nothing came back.
Man who was I kidding, well my MRI finished at 4:15pn and at 4:45pm my dr was calling me with results. Yup, that's right, no Bueno for me. I have a incomplete stress fracture of my femur. Lucky me huh? All I can say that hearing this news was like a piece of me had died. I feel I have gone through all of the emotions in the last week. 1. Denial. 2. Anger. 3. Bargaining. 4. Depression. 5. Acceptance. My world has been turned upside down for the next few weeks as my orthopedic has me nonweight bearing on crutches. Yes, crutches, my best friend and enemy for the next few weeks. You never realize how much you miss and discover you love something until it is taken away from you. That for me is running. I love everything about it and cannot wait to return to the sport I love. Always remember to listen to your body, 9/10 you will be right.
In the meantime, I have the most wonderful husband, family, friends, and coworkers a gal could ask for. The amount of support and love these people have given me is incredible and not sure how I would get through this without them. Guess a tiny road bump won't stop me. I am more at peace with my fate and promised myself I will come back stronger, better, and faster! Just going to take sometime and for me to learn patience. Oh patience, something I don't have and being an active person it's hard to adjust too and slow down. I know this time shall pass and need to thankful for all the other things I have. Yup that's where I will keep my mind and thus shall pass like many other things! Just gotta stay positive and keep moving forward:) I guess running the portland marathon this coming weekend was not in my cards, bet they were worried I would win it:) just kidding. Keeping fingers crossed and praying for speedy recovery. Don't you worry, I have a motivational talk to my leg everyday, we got this:)
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